i feel so lost in life.
like i’m literally standing times square (before they shut it down to traffic) and standing still while the entire world moves and grows and changes around me. true, i am changing physically, but mentally, emotionally, spiritually, i am static. lost.
i know i am not in the right place for me. but i don’t know how to get there. moreover, i can’t get there, because i can’t afford to get there. i can’t afford to toss away all the responsibilities of being an adult to make it happen.
i’m really, really great at what i do, but i don’t have enough to keep me occupied. i literally sit and stare at the screen, wondering how i will fill the eight hours in my work day when i have nothing to do. the pace at which i work is not conducive to a 9-5 (or 7:30-4). on top of it, i’m not empowered to take ownership in my job or my work.
i thought my quarter-life crisis ended four years and 11 months ago. so why now? and how to resolve it?
i don’t know why i’m blogging this, perhaps to occupy 20 minutes of my day.